July 6 we had our repeat ultrasound.
My heart stopped a second time. Why is this happening?
Ava's heart was no longer beating. We have two angel babies and zero living babies. Ava Theresa was born silently at 0936 p.m. July 7, 2012. She was 8.3 oz and 8.5" long. She was tiny and perfect. Ryan says she looks just like me--with my eyes and she definitely had my long fingers and toes.
We had a small service in our hospital room the next day before I was discharged from the hospital. It was perfect. My already fragile heart is broken once again. I was terribly scared that this would happen again, but I was optimistic that things would be ok. Lightening couldn't possibly strike twice.
I don't even know what to say, think or do. My heart hurts...so much.
Bear with me, it’s been a while.
8 years ago
I am so so sorry you are walking this road again. Praying for you
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry. There are no words. Praying for you and your twice broken heart. <3
ReplyDeleteVal, I am so sorry. I know those words don't take away the pain, but they are the only words I know to offer. I've been thinking of you, Ryan, Maddie and Ava often, hoping that you can all feel the love that is being sent your way.
ReplyDeleteMy heart hurts for you as well Val. I don't have the words to make this better, but know that we are praying for you.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry you are going through this all over again. It is so hard and especially right now, I'm sure your world is just spinning. I'll be praying for you and your hubby!
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry you are feeling this pain. I lost two beautiful babies just 14 months apart. My littlest, Jakin, weighed 8.4 oz and was beautiful as well. I can relate all too well to seeing their tiny, perfect little features and having to say goodbye. Sending you prayers now as you continue to grieve.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry. It's so unfair. Biggest hugs. <3
ReplyDeleteYou continue to be in my thoughts and prayers always.
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