Starting things has been hard. Today I am sitting in my pajamas yet at 2:40 p.m. Why, you ask? Well. I keep thinking I should do something...but starting something is hard.
I started and finished something recently. I did a book of Maddie. A book that has all of the photos that were taken of her short time on earth. I have a hard time looking at her photos. She was gone two weeks before we found out she was gone...so her physical condition isn't the best. When I look at her photos, I feel washed with guilt that I didn't know she was gone. Looking at them reminds me that I didn't know. I can't change that fact...ever.
I felt prompted into action purely for financial reasons. Shutterfly had a special for photo books. It ends today...so I had limited time to overthink things and procrastinate. I did something.
I did something in memory of my daughter. I did something in memory of my daughter so I can share her with others.
I hope I can get to the sharing part sometime.
Bear with me, it’s been a while.
8 years ago
Starting something is hard, but you did start, and finish, something for Maddie. You say you were motivated by financial reasons...that's as good a reason as any. You did it for you and for Maddie. Right now, that's all that matters. And when you're ready to share your book with others, you will.
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